A Spark Of....

Getting back in my Groove...

“Some people make things happen, some watch things happen, while others wonder what has happened” - Proverb

At 3 in the morning watching Rugrats and on Tumblr I came across the photo up above. And I realized that I have to stop waiting and start doing to change my recent funkfest that I have been in. Idk if its the environment that I am in (a small town where I feel like a loser loner who is stuck in a box waiting to tear out) or if its me. When I was in the recent city that I HAD to move from, things where different. I was different. I felt free, even when life was shitting on me, it was like I had a new start, it was a rebirth. Now that I'm back in my recent cave of darkness with close minded people. I am about to got to bed so I'm gonna end this on a quick note. I don't know where I'm heading or how many times I'm gonna fuck up but if I do wanna leave this crap hole, get where I'm gonna go, or even fuck up, I gotta start making some moves. Its easier said than done but its definitely gonna get done. KNOW THAT lol. 

Weaker Than You......

A weak man is just by accident. A strong but non-violent man is unjust by accident.
Mahatma Gandhi

I remember about last month or so, I was having a conversation with a group of people about college & employment. So we were talking... well this is how the convo basically went;
person #1: Buffy you should try out Nursing, that'll probably be better for you and there are more jobs out there.
me: Well Nursing really isn't my thing or something I am passionate about.
person #1: Well you should think about it.
person #2: I don't really think Buffy could handle the medical world. You gotta be tough...


WAIT WHATTT!!!

I don't get how someone could think that just because you're a nurse, doctor, lawyer, or whatever these "high paying" jobs are, you do or think more. I want to an Interior Designer and that takes creativity, passion, and physical labor. Not being in the medical field doesn't make me any weaker than a person in it. Just going after my dream takes strength and the way things are going for me right now and all the let downs and obstacles I'm facing with college and me hating school all together   is hard. Do you know how much I wanna take the easy way out and give up but I'm not, but that doesn't matter because people will always put you down as a weaker person than them...